This month has been pretty eventful. There were so many birthdays including mine! There were concerts and friends trips and dinners. I got to see my family and listen to new music and movies. Of course, there was college filling in the gaps keeping me busy.
I think this was a pretty good month. This past Thanksgiving vacation was much needed. I am so thankful to have been able to spend time with my family. I think that giving yourself a rest from school and work is such an important thing for the mind and body. Its necessary for me, I get so stressed and overworked that I forget to give time for myself. Which is why I listen to a lot of music and new artists. It keeps my mind calm and functional. But that’s just me, music will always be a part of my life.
I’m sorry I didn’t write at all this break. I sort of wanted to just waste time away and relax. Usually, when breaks happen I end up switching to vacation mode and not giving a crap about anything other than doing absolutely nothing. It feels pretty great, but withdrawals suck. I am pretty excited for the Christmas breaks because I’ll have time to start my running again and be making music (and of course, writing in this blog). It’s so great to be doing things for yourself.
Next semester I’m going to take it easy. I’ll be taking 12 hours because I am already more than halfway done with my degree. With that, I will have a lot more time to schedule a running routine. I need running. I didn’t realize until this month that running is a need for me and that I miss it so much. Although my times aren’t like they used to be, I can still run nonstop for more than 2 miles and I think that’s at least something.
This month has been something. There were some weird moments but then there was really great times. I always come back to the fact that I like to be alone a lot. But when I see people together I want to be with people or them. It’s not good to isolate yourself but you become attached to that lonely feeling.
Something I’m learning to do is to go out and do it. Involve myself and make friends. Make mistakes. Learn my faults and pains and go out of my way to make myself better for my own personal value. Everyone, including myself, deserves to be happy. We all deserve to explore our lives and choices. We don’t have time to be unhappy and negative. I know I talk about this like it is the easiest thing to do. But I remind myself a quote from the movie Vanilla Sky.
And this is true and effective. Time and change is a great thing.
Things can happen and we fall back down. But I’m slowly, barely coming to terms with the turn of my life.On another note, I hope that your November month has gone well. Find the time to work for yourself and not for what other people want from you. Remember to always stay educated and listening to music.
I’ll talk to you all later! (probably in another post lol)