YOUR BEST CRITIC: WHY WE CHEAT OURSELVES FROM DOING A “GOOD JOB”

YOUR BEST CRITIC: WHY WE CHEAT OURSELVES FROM DOING A “GOOD JOB”

The answer is you. The dynamic of criticism can be set to many levels and when we are our own best critic, sometimes we like to bury ourselves.

I believe that everyone has a creative hand. Personally, I like to bring forth people’s creativity, sometimes even force it out.  People are judgmental of their own work. They believe that there has to be worth in one’s art, not happiness. Maybe there is happiness in worth, but I question. Why do people create with the intention of other people’s opinions? What is the definition of perfect? What is perfect to us? What does it have to be perfect?

I’ve gotten questions about how I post my work and in a way exposing myself or being vulnerable. Yes, I agree it is vulnerable and time-consuming. Mentally consuming. I think the hardest thing in life is commitment. We commit to family, we commit to friends, we commit to our partners, our jobs, ourselves. In some of those commitments, it is less than others. With all this commitment there is effort, With effort there is perfectionism. I wouldn’t call myself a perfectionist but a complete-ist? (Is that even a word?)

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The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Everything is uniform…

So I’m still struggling with one thing. ONE THING, and it’s my own fault…clothes.

I miss my closet so much! Going on a month with just whatever I brought in my duffle bag is not working out for me. I have run out of ideas on what to wear, and I am going through withdrawals from the lack of shopping. I’m not a shopaholic per see, but I do like to clean out my closet, sell my clothes, and buy new ones with my credit. Okay, that is being a shopaholic, but I still minimize and not lose money at the same time! It’s good for my pocket and for the environment. But…I bought clothes online.

In a way, I had too. Reuse and thrift stores are beaten right now and the only service I had to get through this quarantine is online shopping. I guess some of that lands in my favor and companies. But still, I wish I can support the other. I would buy from Depop but I have no idea when I will be back in my apartment to collect the packages.

But as a fun and wonderful surprise for myself self I bought the clothes with a 50 dollar credit I had :). Not only that, but I also bought makeup from Glossier that I was running out of!

“I’m going to let you in on a little secret: Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don’t plan it, don’t wait for it, just let it happen” – Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks

I like to live by this motto, I mean of course, I did plan to have a package shipped to me, but it was the impulse to buy.


To break this uniform I decided to shave my armpits 😦 and I regret it. I was bored! What can I do?! And I noticed that people were getting hair cuts and I wanted to cut something of mine.

I also got a hair cut. HAHAHAHA! You want to know the truth? It’s not bad at all. I actually did collaborative hair cutting with my friends Sophie and Alma. Us girls need to release our stress some way. Ours is spontaneous hair cuts :).

 

One of my uniforms of the week, also a new hair cut…looks the same..haha

 

I think today needs to be a creative day. Honestly, with this time on my hands, it has been hard to even make. I don’t even listen to music sometimes :/. There is a lack of urgency and it’s killing me. Hmm, that sounds like a poem waiting to happen. There is a lack of urgency but I’m not alone. I feel like I have someone there to experience it with me, and then it’s not too bad, the urgency is there.

Something is missing but that makes room for the little things in life.

So be careful in there. Don’t cut your hair (do), jump around and make a dance to a song, have family karaoke, or a drinking night with friends where you put sharpie tattoos on each other’s necks 🙂

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Remember that routine I told you about…

Well, today I made the effort to get ready in the morning. Having a little morning routine or some sort of routine is nice. Getting dressed for the day helps with productiveness and because of that, I was able to make this new video. 🙂

Everyone is homebound so might as well create and make to keep you occupied.

 

 

pls enjoy
H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Day 2

Taking it all in…

I guess this is day two. Right? What should this bring?

I realized that I didn’t pack enough clothes for home. I forgot my MPK to make music. I already lost two socks??? I finished High Fidelity….and I got furloughed…

Well, this was going to happen right? How would I get through my day, what will happen? When will I change out of my pj’s? Everything is going to be okay.

Today was a good day and I think it’s a matter of getting things done!

Copy of Art of isolation 2.pngI got to wake up late, made some coffee and had some leftover Chinese food. I lounged a bit and had an addictive stroll with Animal Crossing! I occasionally checked a group chat I’m in to keep me updated with work, friends, and things in Austin. I had someone over so we painting with my brother our favorite movie scenes, played goldfish, SORRY!, Operation, an electric scooter (gotta get that sunlight), and of course the switch. Watched funny videos and hung out with my family while music played in the background.

Right now I’m in my very own downtime, which is always the end of the day. I think there’s a poem that I want to write, maybe I should draw and design some things. I feel that I’m just winging it for the most part when it comes to keeping up with the boredom. I just realized that I haven’t been able to do my usual walks around Austin- this is not the time to get sad. On another note, I’m considering buying a music/maker app on my switch…and I bought it. I feel like something is missing and I think it’s my space. My OWN sanctuary. Being under curfew and quarantine in a place hasn’t been my real home in 3, heck maybe 4 years is a lot to take in. But I can work around it.

Towards the end of the day I just hung out had some spaghetti and now here I am. I still feel in a creative mood along with reflective. Taking it all in is the step to this self-isolation, this art of isolation.

I have a few questions.

What color do you feel today? How do you take it all in?

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

I haven’t said much about what is going on in the world, but it has definitely been on my mind. A LOT. I worry…I have fears and anxieties. And with the whole COVID-19 and paranoia of the world population, I’ve been reconsidering human reactions and morals and just the way we treat each other during a world panic, and it’s upsetting. There will be massive consequences casualties to this pandemic and we will see it in the employment rate, the economy, education, politics, and on families. The best that we can do, that I can do is be a good person. Treat each other with love and with words and good intentions. To help those in need and to seek those that can’t ask for help themselves. I  just want everyone to be okay you know, especially for the ones that I care about, and I’m sure you wish that too.

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Some of my Favorite Things

Some of my Favorite Things

I want to take a look back and remind myself that there are some good things, the best things, and favorite things in my life. I thought of this when I was going for a walk today around my campus and it reminded me of some beautiful things hidden. I’ve realized that I really like hidden corners haha. But, I felt like I should share some things that I appreciate.

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My SALES article on Glasse – A Music Media Publication

My SALES article on Glasse – A Music Media Publication

Hi everyone! Do you remember I said I would write about my experiences at concerts to ya’ll? We’ll a friend of mine told me about a music media publication run by young writers and content creators like myself. If you enjoy music, concerts, Continue reading “My SALES article on Glasse – A Music Media Publication”