Diary of Songs

Diary of Songs

2 Playlists For The Price Of 1

So I was doing a little music clean out and organization (something you can do with your isolation time) and I realized that I made two playlists I never posted. So I thought, might as well release them at the same time. I wanted to make a new playlist but I already had two hidden in my pocket. I guess these songs are sort of part one and part two of growth. I think a lot has happened since the start of the first playlist and the one after that.

Who thought that going through old music would be somewhat emotionally exhausting. I started going through the playlist that started it all – We’ll let you know-, originally the playlist was not posted but I decided to edit into a previous post of new years 2019. It’s just a bunch of songs right? But for some reason, it meant much more than that to me. It was sort of a diary of songs and I even wrote in one of my journals an in-depth understanding and reading of what these songs mean to me. This was the time when I came out and when I broke off into the world. It was a time when I met new people and new friends, which are either still in my life or not at all. All the same, it’s a special moment in my life.


 

These next two playlists were ones that I got lost in but lost in a good way. A happy lost.

The named of the playlist  -i cant tell if im smiling-

This is the start of confusion and realization. I wasn’t sure if I was happy, hence not knowing for sure if I’m smiling because I feel that I haven’t been okay for a while. Smiling is a new action. I think I got a new hair cut. Maybe I was Continue reading “Diary of Songs”

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Everything is uniform…

So I’m still struggling with one thing. ONE THING, and it’s my own fault…clothes.

I miss my closet so much! Going on a month with just whatever I brought in my duffle bag is not working out for me. I have run out of ideas on what to wear, and I am going through withdrawals from the lack of shopping. I’m not a shopaholic per see, but I do like to clean out my closet, sell my clothes, and buy new ones with my credit. Okay, that is being a shopaholic, but I still minimize and not lose money at the same time! It’s good for my pocket and for the environment. But…I bought clothes online.

In a way, I had too. Reuse and thrift stores are beaten right now and the only service I had to get through this quarantine is online shopping. I guess some of that lands in my favor and companies. But still, I wish I can support the other. I would buy from Depop but I have no idea when I will be back in my apartment to collect the packages.

But as a fun and wonderful surprise for myself self I bought the clothes with a 50 dollar credit I had :). Not only that, but I also bought makeup from Glossier that I was running out of!

“I’m going to let you in on a little secret: Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don’t plan it, don’t wait for it, just let it happen” – Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks

I like to live by this motto, I mean of course, I did plan to have a package shipped to me, but it was the impulse to buy.


To break this uniform I decided to shave my armpits 😦 and I regret it. I was bored! What can I do?! And I noticed that people were getting hair cuts and I wanted to cut something of mine.

I also got a hair cut. HAHAHAHA! You want to know the truth? It’s not bad at all. I actually did collaborative hair cutting with my friends Sophie and Alma. Us girls need to release our stress some way. Ours is spontaneous hair cuts :).

 

One of my uniforms of the week, also a new hair cut…looks the same..haha

 

I think today needs to be a creative day. Honestly, with this time on my hands, it has been hard to even make. I don’t even listen to music sometimes :/. There is a lack of urgency and it’s killing me. Hmm, that sounds like a poem waiting to happen. There is a lack of urgency but I’m not alone. I feel like I have someone there to experience it with me, and then it’s not too bad, the urgency is there.

Something is missing but that makes room for the little things in life.

So be careful in there. Don’t cut your hair (do), jump around and make a dance to a song, have family karaoke, or a drinking night with friends where you put sharpie tattoos on each other’s necks 🙂

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Remember that routine I told you about…

Well, today I made the effort to get ready in the morning. Having a little morning routine or some sort of routine is nice. Getting dressed for the day helps with productiveness and because of that, I was able to make this new video. 🙂

Everyone is homebound so might as well create and make to keep you occupied.

 

 

pls enjoy
H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Day 2

Taking it all in…

I guess this is day two. Right? What should this bring?

I realized that I didn’t pack enough clothes for home. I forgot my MPK to make music. I already lost two socks??? I finished High Fidelity….and I got furloughed…

Well, this was going to happen right? How would I get through my day, what will happen? When will I change out of my pj’s? Everything is going to be okay.

Today was a good day and I think it’s a matter of getting things done!

Copy of Art of isolation 2.pngI got to wake up late, made some coffee and had some leftover Chinese food. I lounged a bit and had an addictive stroll with Animal Crossing! I occasionally checked a group chat I’m in to keep me updated with work, friends, and things in Austin. I had someone over so we painting with my brother our favorite movie scenes, played goldfish, SORRY!, Operation, an electric scooter (gotta get that sunlight), and of course the switch. Watched funny videos and hung out with my family while music played in the background.

Right now I’m in my very own downtime, which is always the end of the day. I think there’s a poem that I want to write, maybe I should draw and design some things. I feel that I’m just winging it for the most part when it comes to keeping up with the boredom. I just realized that I haven’t been able to do my usual walks around Austin- this is not the time to get sad. On another note, I’m considering buying a music/maker app on my switch…and I bought it. I feel like something is missing and I think it’s my space. My OWN sanctuary. Being under curfew and quarantine in a place hasn’t been my real home in 3, heck maybe 4 years is a lot to take in. But I can work around it.

Towards the end of the day I just hung out had some spaghetti and now here I am. I still feel in a creative mood along with reflective. Taking it all in is the step to this self-isolation, this art of isolation.

I have a few questions.

What color do you feel today? How do you take it all in?

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

I haven’t said much about what is going on in the world, but it has definitely been on my mind. A LOT. I worry…I have fears and anxieties. And with the whole COVID-19 and paranoia of the world population, I’ve been reconsidering human reactions and morals and just the way we treat each other during a world panic, and it’s upsetting. There will be massive consequences casualties to this pandemic and we will see it in the employment rate, the economy, education, politics, and on families. The best that we can do, that I can do is be a good person. Treat each other with love and with words and good intentions. To help those in need and to seek those that can’t ask for help themselves. I  just want everyone to be okay you know, especially for the ones that I care about, and I’m sure you wish that too.

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-don’t be afraid of the room-

-don’t be afraid of the room-

A JANUARY-FEBRUARY UPDATE

 

Two months have gone by and we are now in March! February seemed like the longest month ever, I thought it would never end. Not that I hate that month, it was just a buffer until March and April where spring, music, vacation, and concerts start dropping my way.

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Some of my Favorite Things

Some of my Favorite Things

I want to take a look back and remind myself that there are some good things, the best things, and favorite things in my life. I thought of this when I was going for a walk today around my campus and it reminded me of some beautiful things hidden. I’ve realized that I really like hidden corners haha. But, I felt like I should share some things that I appreciate.

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GOOD THINGS- small talk, people, things, smiles

GOOD THINGS- small talk, people, things, smiles

SO, how long has it been since I made a video? Almost since the summer, I think.

I’m really glad I made this video. It felt good and I was in no rush to make it. I know when I did the youtube thing I planned heavily or I made dumb goals that were unattainable.

This video is everywhere! I do a little bit of catch up on where and what I’ve been doing and at 7:07 the rest is a cute little montage of some good things 😉

Please enjoy!

If you like things like this pls lemme kno!

 

H

EVERYONES ALWAYS SAD – a new song

EVERYONES ALWAYS SAD – a new song

Okay okay, I really stalled this post because posting about my own music is pretty vulnerable. Some days I like my music and other times I really don’t. But I have to post about it sometime. And who knows! I have the choice to delete this if I wanted to :o. Anyway, I hope you enjoy 🙂

I really don’t know what this song is, but it was fun making it!

Give me a follow if you’d like 🙂

I have other songs like these…

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Things I Hope To Do By The End of The Year

Things I Hope To Do By The End of The Year

Here is a little evaluation time. I remembered that I has some goals for the summer and some I did and didn’t do. So, I decided to compile a list here and also in physical form in a journal. These lists won’t be far fetched, just some goals and fun things I want to do. I feel like everyone should keep a list like this; so on a boring old day you might have something to do. Also, we’re at a half point in the year, I have to get some things done while I can.

Now, some of these things may cost money and others won’t. It really depends on the situation and task at hand. Now, let’s get to the list.

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i only said – an update

i only said – an update

Mental Health, Physical Health, Creative Projects, and Getting Back 

Hi

It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these. I think the last one I did was around February. Now that it’s summer I can finally tell you a few things to come. I know I haven’t been posting lately and I think the last post I did was about two weeks ago, so it’s been a while! I’m sorry about that, things got really busy on the last few weeks of school and it seemed like I had no time for any personal projects or ideas I had. Plus, work takes up some of my free time so I had no motivation to set aside blog time. I feel like it’s been a month since I’ve done anything on here, but that should change soon! I’ve been going through a lot of things and I will be honest and say Continue reading “i only said – an update”