The sun rains
And grows the field of raisins.
The showers past
And pollen collects in hair.
Tans and flesh
meet their match.
As the spring
of the new morning
Stretches the new linen
Hello! Tuesday began the first day of spring. To continue our seasonal playlists, I made a Springtime playlist. I would have posted it on Tuesday but I already had another post scheduled for that day. It’s been awhile since I’ve posted a playlist but I’ve been working on a project involving playlists (which will come in time). In my opinion, most of the songs are pretty chill. I collect these songs with no a particular thing or idea in mind, just the fact that I really like these songs :). New songs might be added in time or throughout the season. I really hope you enjoy the playlist, Spotify link is below!
Give it a listen, give music a chance!
I have come to the realization that I like to write about food. A lot.
Through my poetry, I almost always have something to say that involves food. It happens through a metaphor or a imagery that I come up from the start or serves as the centerpiece of my poetry.
There is something about food that I love. Doesn’t food make people happy? It can be rewarding, it can be uniting, it can complete, it can serve. Food can do a lot of things in our life. I know for a fact that when I get out of a class or it’s the end of the day, I am so grateful to finally be able to eat. It can either be with a friend or by myself, food is something that refreshes and fulfills an empty stomach.
I usually write about fruit. It’s easier to create a metaphor for the type of fruit I’m using. Since high school, I’ve always had an obsession with fruit. I would eat apples, strawberries, and bananas almost every day to maintain my sweet tooth. My best friend even decided to call me Babyfruit because of how much I would eat them.
Now that I think about it-I don’t have a full explanation why I use fruit or food in my poetry. It is one of the few things that has attached to my writing. I don’t give myself much credit because there is so much to improve on my writing. Writing is a process and always needs revision. Revision is the hardest for me, besides starting a poem.
I’ve been trying to observe my writing patterns and my stress has been prohibiting my creativity and inspiration. I’m in a stump where I have no idea what to write about. I still have not written a short story!
But, writing takes time! I have much to learn.
Hello! Sorry for the late Songs of the Week. I just got back home so I didn’t really plan it out. But! I do have some song selections for you.
In a recent post, I talked about the singer Ruru. (Thanks to RJ) . I listened to her recent album and I loved it. It reminds me a lot of Jakob Ogawa, No Vacation, or even Clairo.
Hello Again! This is the start of a new month which means new songs and posts!
Today I have a long list of songs to share with you. Recently I made two playlists based on my parents, so I’ve been listening to it the whole week.
But for myself, I’ve been listening to Girlpool…
Although this month is short, it seems to me that it’s been going on for forever. I think I’ve been more stressed than I was last month and I think it has to do with the fact that there are few days in this month to work with. Even as the days seem long, time goes by too fast for me.
This is the month of first exams so I’ve been swamped by unnecessary quizzes, information, and readings that I wish I could enjoy but my anxiousness doesn’t allow me. The main thing I’ve been looking forward to is SPRING BREAK. I want to for once get in a swimsuit and get into a pool, and at least have some warm weather for once! It’s dreary outside but sooner or later it will be scorching hot and I’ll be begging for the cold again.
I’ve been on the hunt to search for a new internship which is incredibly hard and annoying. I have some companies and places in mind, hopefully, they’ll be looking for a 20-year-old with somewhat experience. I work for the Fine Arts Career Services as a MArking Assistant. I help with making fliers, designing, marketing business. But for this next year, I want to work with something under my field or that involves literature. I looked at some non- profit publishing companies for Austen so hopefully I can find an internship there. Hopefully!
I have been so tired. I hate when that happens. Why does life make people feel like this? I literally don’t want to do anything. But I have to keep busy, summer is for laziness and relaxing. Spring and Fall not so much. I’m still running and I’m slowly seeing the progress of my work. This past week I didn’t run for three days and it killed me. I don’t think I went back to my old habits, I definitely feel really good when I run and I’ve seen some changes in my legs! I need to train more on endurance and millage.
I know it’s the 20th of January but I was thinking about my New Years Resolutions. I believe that the best kind of resolutions is the ones you naturally do with no force, and without writing down. Sort of like internal goals you have always been wishing to do but never do it. For example, I was always scared to drive. I had panic attacks and anxiety thinking about driving and the fear of messing up. But one day I decided to just grab the keys and go drive around the neighboorhood. Then I decided to drive to my boyfriend’s house which is about 30-40 to go. And by realizing what I was doing I knew I would have to take him back home AND drive myself back within that day. And I felt good. I conquered my fear. Internally I knew that was one of my resolutions and I accomplished it with simple effort.
Now that got me thinking. I should have a resolutions list, just to keep track and remind myself of the lifestyle I want for 2018. One of them would be running and healthy eating. Now, I walk a lot about few miles every day. But I wanted to push myself more. As soon as I got back to campus I started going to the free gym for my apartment. It just started happening and I have never felt better. I even got all my roommates to start coming with me and my boyfriend to the gym!
Change is good, especially if it is for the better of your life and others. I hope that you will sit down and realize that making a change, for whatever kind of reason, is worth the beautiful mindset you will have in the end.
These are my resolutions.
For everyone, I think 2017 was honestly crappy. It was. But I also believe that it’s given me a whole new change and perspective on life, and myself. I’ve had so many new experiences and met so many new people. I’ve come to realizations about myself and others. I’ve reconnected with people and I lost others.
I know that this year generally was “hard” and the “worst” for everyone, but I think it was the most changing for myself. Lately, I have not been so great when it comes to posting my poetry and other things, I know that the Christmas break is one part of the procrastination. However, I’ve been experiencing some emotional things in my life. Mentally I feel as if I get depressed, sad, and the loss of motivation. Sometimes I’ll be mentally drained that it’s too hard or too much to do anything. It’s something I struggle with a lot and I usually don’t talk about. I get self-conscious and I worry about making something great and good to place in a public space. I don’t want to label it or make it seem like I’m the only one with this problem. I know other people go through that. Even now I’m not fully explaining how I feel and other anxiety issues I have. But that’s for another time. I think these emotions and stressfulness has a lot to do with the way the world is now. College scars us 18 to 25 year olds, and exerts so much stress on us. And the answer to that is just to “deal with it” or “That’s how life is”. No, it doesn’t have to be like that.
Maybe 2018 can give us a new start to make something wonderful in life. To make life not shitty for ourselves. That is one thing I want to do for myself. 2017 has taken so much from me and given so much back. And I want to reflect on the great things that have happened in 2017.
First off 2017 gave me the chance to travel outside the states. I had the wonderful opportunity to go visit my Dad and my step Mom in Okinawa, Japan. I still can’t believe I got to experience a culture like Japan’s. To this day I still miss it and I can’t wait to go back this summer. I know for sure we’re going to go to Thailand or another country for 2 weeks. I recommend that everyone should go experience a new culture and travel someday in their lives. Everyone needs to leave the US for a vacation at some point. I got to taste the difference of the air, feel the sun’s warmth with a different welcome.
I know I met my boyfriend in 2016, but in 2017 he has always been there with me. I cant think of a time when we were apart. He’s made me realize some things about myself and has brought out the greatness in me. I know this may be sappy but it’s true that someone you care about really does bring out the best in you. He’s my punching bag, he’s my teddy bear, he’s the ear that I talk to, he’s the person that makes me laugh so hard I start crying and I forget all the bad things that happened. I hope I’ve done the same for him as much as he’s done for me. This brings me to my wonderful roommates that I lived with in 2017 and the many people I met through them. They brought me out of my introverted shell and given me a whole new relationship with myself and others.
Three highlights of the year would have to be the fact that I got to see The Garden, Mac Demarco, and The Shins all in this year. YES, I DID! I have to say that I’m proud of myself for buying those tickets. It is so fucking amazing that they all decided to stop by Austin to do a show. It was like the Gods of Music smiled down at me and said, “Hollie you deserve this”. This goes to show that 2017 did have something to put up.
In the second half of 2017 gave me the chance to do what I want in a college. I gave back myself the chance to write, which is one of my greatest passions. It’s the main tool I use to cope with things in my life. One of my greatest fears is losing my memory which is why I write in a journal. I have so many thoughts and words to say and I found that writing was the way to channel all the sounds in my head. This blossomed my nick for writing poetry.
From what I can remember this has been my 2017 in a wrap-up. I’m sure a lot of other stuff has happened but I’m going to move on from that. Starting off…I want to be better at writing poetry and with music. I did a song recently, fully done and cleaned. I’ll decide when to post it on here. But yes, that is one new thing that has led up to this new year. I will make more songs soon! Sorry if this post seemed like a ramble.
I hope you all have entered 2018 with some grace, kisses, love, and happiness. And I wish for it to continue on.