YOUR BEST CRITIC: WHY WE CHEAT OURSELVES FROM DOING A “GOOD JOB”

YOUR BEST CRITIC: WHY WE CHEAT OURSELVES FROM DOING A “GOOD JOB”

The answer is you. The dynamic of criticism can be set to many levels and when we are our own best critic, sometimes we like to bury ourselves.

I believe that everyone has a creative hand. Personally, I like to bring forth people’s creativity, sometimes even force it out.  People are judgmental of their own work. They believe that there has to be worth in one’s art, not happiness. Maybe there is happiness in worth, but I question. Why do people create with the intention of other people’s opinions? What is the definition of perfect? What is perfect to us? What does it have to be perfect?

I’ve gotten questions about how I post my work and in a way exposing myself or being vulnerable. Yes, I agree it is vulnerable and time-consuming. Mentally consuming. I think the hardest thing in life is commitment. We commit to family, we commit to friends, we commit to our partners, our jobs, ourselves. In some of those commitments, it is less than others. With all this commitment there is effort, With effort there is perfectionism. I wouldn’t call myself a perfectionist but a complete-ist? (Is that even a word?)

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Diary of Songs

Diary of Songs

2 Playlists For The Price Of 1

So I was doing a little music clean out and organization (something you can do with your isolation time) and I realized that I made two playlists I never posted. So I thought, might as well release them at the same time. I wanted to make a new playlist but I already had two hidden in my pocket. I guess these songs are sort of part one and part two of growth. I think a lot has happened since the start of the first playlist and the one after that.

Who thought that going through old music would be somewhat emotionally exhausting. I started going through the playlist that started it all – We’ll let you know-, originally the playlist was not posted but I decided to edit into a previous post of new years 2019. It’s just a bunch of songs right? But for some reason, it meant much more than that to me. It was sort of a diary of songs and I even wrote in one of my journals an in-depth understanding and reading of what these songs mean to me. This was the time when I came out and when I broke off into the world. It was a time when I met new people and new friends, which are either still in my life or not at all. All the same, it’s a special moment in my life.


 

These next two playlists were ones that I got lost in but lost in a good way. A happy lost.

The named of the playlist  -i cant tell if im smiling-

This is the start of confusion and realization. I wasn’t sure if I was happy, hence not knowing for sure if I’m smiling because I feel that I haven’t been okay for a while. Smiling is a new action. I think I got a new hair cut. Maybe I was Continue reading “Diary of Songs”

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Everything is uniform…

So I’m still struggling with one thing. ONE THING, and it’s my own fault…clothes.

I miss my closet so much! Going on a month with just whatever I brought in my duffle bag is not working out for me. I have run out of ideas on what to wear, and I am going through withdrawals from the lack of shopping. I’m not a shopaholic per see, but I do like to clean out my closet, sell my clothes, and buy new ones with my credit. Okay, that is being a shopaholic, but I still minimize and not lose money at the same time! It’s good for my pocket and for the environment. But…I bought clothes online.

In a way, I had too. Reuse and thrift stores are beaten right now and the only service I had to get through this quarantine is online shopping. I guess some of that lands in my favor and companies. But still, I wish I can support the other. I would buy from Depop but I have no idea when I will be back in my apartment to collect the packages.

But as a fun and wonderful surprise for myself self I bought the clothes with a 50 dollar credit I had :). Not only that, but I also bought makeup from Glossier that I was running out of!

“I’m going to let you in on a little secret: Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don’t plan it, don’t wait for it, just let it happen” – Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks

I like to live by this motto, I mean of course, I did plan to have a package shipped to me, but it was the impulse to buy.


To break this uniform I decided to shave my armpits 😦 and I regret it. I was bored! What can I do?! And I noticed that people were getting hair cuts and I wanted to cut something of mine.

I also got a hair cut. HAHAHAHA! You want to know the truth? It’s not bad at all. I actually did collaborative hair cutting with my friends Sophie and Alma. Us girls need to release our stress some way. Ours is spontaneous hair cuts :).

 

One of my uniforms of the week, also a new hair cut…looks the same..haha

 

I think today needs to be a creative day. Honestly, with this time on my hands, it has been hard to even make. I don’t even listen to music sometimes :/. There is a lack of urgency and it’s killing me. Hmm, that sounds like a poem waiting to happen. There is a lack of urgency but I’m not alone. I feel like I have someone there to experience it with me, and then it’s not too bad, the urgency is there.

Something is missing but that makes room for the little things in life.

So be careful in there. Don’t cut your hair (do), jump around and make a dance to a song, have family karaoke, or a drinking night with friends where you put sharpie tattoos on each other’s necks 🙂

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Remember that routine I told you about…

Well, today I made the effort to get ready in the morning. Having a little morning routine or some sort of routine is nice. Getting dressed for the day helps with productiveness and because of that, I was able to make this new video. 🙂

Everyone is homebound so might as well create and make to keep you occupied.

 

 

pls enjoy
H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

Day 2

Taking it all in…

I guess this is day two. Right? What should this bring?

I realized that I didn’t pack enough clothes for home. I forgot my MPK to make music. I already lost two socks??? I finished High Fidelity….and I got furloughed…

Well, this was going to happen right? How would I get through my day, what will happen? When will I change out of my pj’s? Everything is going to be okay.

Today was a good day and I think it’s a matter of getting things done!

Copy of Art of isolation 2.pngI got to wake up late, made some coffee and had some leftover Chinese food. I lounged a bit and had an addictive stroll with Animal Crossing! I occasionally checked a group chat I’m in to keep me updated with work, friends, and things in Austin. I had someone over so we painting with my brother our favorite movie scenes, played goldfish, SORRY!, Operation, an electric scooter (gotta get that sunlight), and of course the switch. Watched funny videos and hung out with my family while music played in the background.

Right now I’m in my very own downtime, which is always the end of the day. I think there’s a poem that I want to write, maybe I should draw and design some things. I feel that I’m just winging it for the most part when it comes to keeping up with the boredom. I just realized that I haven’t been able to do my usual walks around Austin- this is not the time to get sad. On another note, I’m considering buying a music/maker app on my switch…and I bought it. I feel like something is missing and I think it’s my space. My OWN sanctuary. Being under curfew and quarantine in a place hasn’t been my real home in 3, heck maybe 4 years is a lot to take in. But I can work around it.

Towards the end of the day I just hung out had some spaghetti and now here I am. I still feel in a creative mood along with reflective. Taking it all in is the step to this self-isolation, this art of isolation.

I have a few questions.

What color do you feel today? How do you take it all in?

 

H

The Art Of Isolation

The Art Of Isolation

I haven’t said much about what is going on in the world, but it has definitely been on my mind. A LOT. I worry…I have fears and anxieties. And with the whole COVID-19 and paranoia of the world population, I’ve been reconsidering human reactions and morals and just the way we treat each other during a world panic, and it’s upsetting. There will be massive consequences casualties to this pandemic and we will see it in the employment rate, the economy, education, politics, and on families. The best that we can do, that I can do is be a good person. Treat each other with love and with words and good intentions. To help those in need and to seek those that can’t ask for help themselves. I  just want everyone to be okay you know, especially for the ones that I care about, and I’m sure you wish that too.

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-don’t be afraid of the room-

-don’t be afraid of the room-

A JANUARY-FEBRUARY UPDATE

 

Two months have gone by and we are now in March! February seemed like the longest month ever, I thought it would never end. Not that I hate that month, it was just a buffer until March and April where spring, music, vacation, and concerts start dropping my way.

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Some of my Favorite Things

Some of my Favorite Things

I want to take a look back and remind myself that there are some good things, the best things, and favorite things in my life. I thought of this when I was going for a walk today around my campus and it reminded me of some beautiful things hidden. I’ve realized that I really like hidden corners haha. But, I felt like I should share some things that I appreciate.

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Join The Cult

Join The Cult

Art by Tin Can Forest


Songbird is calling all artists of many shapes, colors, and sizes. Yes, I’m talking to you…

I realized that I am surrounded by so many people who like to CREATE. In all honesty, I feel inspired by these people and the new people that I meet. I genuinely get so excited and giddy at the fact that people like to make things just like me!

Now, I have bigger plans for this but of course, I’m going to start off small and FEATURE these artists. Eventually, I would like it if people could write for this blog, but that is a whole other matter and maybe side project of a kind. There is a lot of big steps and regulations to consider haha!

This sort of reminds me of the First Impressions Series I was starting, but that can happen another time. This time I really want to feature the artists and their own work.

I know I say things, and sometimes don’t follow up…but….this time it’s different. I mean, I said I would do Songs Of The Week and that is one of many things I have actually kept up! This is something entirely fresh and new! More faces! More art! More creatives!

So! Please! Let’s get started!

If you would like to contact me, please do at

@_hollie_songbird_blog on Instagram or comment below.

Sorry about no email, working on it!

 

 

 

EVERYONES ALWAYS SAD – a new song

EVERYONES ALWAYS SAD – a new song

Okay okay, I really stalled this post because posting about my own music is pretty vulnerable. Some days I like my music and other times I really don’t. But I have to post about it sometime. And who knows! I have the choice to delete this if I wanted to :o. Anyway, I hope you enjoy 🙂

I really don’t know what this song is, but it was fun making it!

Give me a follow if you’d like 🙂

I have other songs like these…

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CLOUDBUSTING – A POEM

CLOUDBUSTING – A POEM
(title inspired by the Kate Bush song)

CLOUDBUSTING

For the second time I asked

why the clouds were late

I grew rosemary on my

temples and collected

Vesper

               tines in the morning

 

wax of secrets and diaries of

beauty for

               the second time, a second time

the world was made with

paper and construction blue

 

I love it when

my stomach jokes

and when my elbow drove me to the lake

with a door, and I

remembered the last time my liver was

handed, crowned with

jewels and baskets of

oranges, the ones picked

last night rolled back twice

on some moss’s jealousy

 

I wonder why

I wonder

Why the second time

the clouds didn’t call today

 

H

IM FEELING READ BUT WEARING BLEW

IM FEELING READ BUT WEARING BLEW

Hi everyone, I’ve collected some poems but I strayed away from posting them. The class I’m taking has forced me ( in a good way) to write poems/lines/phrases again. I’m happy that I’m writing again, and I’ve noticed that my word choices and the poems themselves have changed. I’ll try to post the ones I do for class, but here is one that I wrote outside of it. I might use this is workshop, but I don’t know. I try not to devalue my poetry and I treat it as separate from myself. I hope you enjoy this short one.

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-it cant rain all the time- a playlist

-it cant rain all the time- a playlist

A new playlist for the end of the summer…

Hey everyone, the summer is coming to a close so it’s time to transition to the fall season! Here are some songs I’ve been listening to for the last part of the summer. The title was inspired by a quote from the movie “The Crow”- some songs in here are from Continue reading “-it cant rain all the time- a playlist”