i only said – an update

i only said – an update

Mental Health, Physical Health, Creative Projects, and Getting Back 


It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these. I think the last one I did was around February. Now that it’s summer I can finally tell you a few things to come. I know I haven’t been posting lately and I think the last post I did was about two weeks ago, so it’s been a while! I’m sorry about that, things got really busy on the last few weeks of school and it seemed like I had no time for any personal projects or ideas I had. Plus, work takes up some of my free time so I had no motivation to set aside blog time. I feel like it’s been a month since I’ve done anything on here, but that should change soon! I’ve been going through a lot of things and I will be honest and say Continue reading “i only said – an update”

What I Do When I Feel…Creatively Frustrated

What I Do When I Feel…Creatively Frustrated

If I’m writing this post, it might be because I’m creatively frustrated. Haha – just a lucky guess.

I realized I forgot to write a post for today and here I am doing it very much last minute. Sounds like something I would do but I guess I work better under pressure.

I figured that I am not the only artist stuck in a rut, all of us (yes you are an artist too) are sometimes in a difficult place. Especially when it comes to a creative project or when you want to rekindle your creative spirit. It’s okay – we have al been there and we all will be there. Creative frustration should be a time to rebirth your spark.  I have a problem of thinking too much, way too much, to the point that I forget what I wanted to do/say/make/or act in that moment. It sucks, but I live with it. I have so much pen up excitement (and frustration) to just produce the words and images in my head. I just want to share, love, and make things for everyone! Here are some things I do to help myself. I find that this helps out a lot with how I think things through.

I give myself a solo music/dance scene

Yes. This is a faithful technique. It really just helps me feel better when I do this. I lip sync or literally sing along to my music while dancing in front of a mirror. I do this in the Continue reading “What I Do When I Feel…Creatively Frustrated”

Gratitude – Day 5

Gratitude – Day 5

“I am so grateful for music”

Today, music has been the best stress reliever. I am so nervous and stressed for an exam I have, a morning class at 8, finishing a book, typing up questions, just all my classes. I am so tired and all I want to do is actually relax on my birthday. It makes me kind of sad because I would think that my 21st would be exciting on the day of. But I can’t always get what I want. Anyway, the weekend will be great!

Today consisted of me sitting at my desk going through power points and singing along to my self-made playlists I have on Spotify. It was sort of fun…blasting my vocals along to the speaker of my laptop. Singing some classics and being reminded of artists I liked really lifted my spirits for today. I miss music all the time. It’s such a great friend.

Tomorrow is going to be fine! I have nothing to worry about. Life is not setting me up for failure!

^did that sound sarcastic? I didn’t mean to lmao.


National Gratitude Month

All I Wanna Do…

All I Wanna Do…

Stress, YouTube, Self-degrading, Music, Thoughts, Life Update


So it’s been a pretty long time since I’ve done a blog update. Actually since the summer. I’m not too sure where to start but, it’s been a lot. I wanted to do an update since the start of the school semester but I never got the time to do it. Sometimes I Continue reading “All I Wanna Do…”

Stage 1


I strive and strive

And after I fake my way

there is still a crack and shapes my mould.

I can only perceive the heat that burns

and ice never seems to clam me down

maybe lavender might do the trick.

And lather it over the bathe

but still the skin cracks

and fills in

Must be from the tears and continued